Day 212

Day 212 in Loserland. Yesterday had a rough ending. I ate cookies. 4 of them. I felt like shit, but that's what I deserved I guess! I don't even know what came over me. It was my first binge I guess I would call it because I just shoved them in me before my brain could react.
Today is going better - not great, better. I can't wait to finish school though, argh! My scale is broken so no weighing myself for a few more days, not that I would want to weigh myself right now haha...

Anyhoo, here's what I ate today:

Breakfast - Detour bar
Snack - SFNF Pumpkin latte
Lunch - 1 egg salad sandwich on whole wheat
Snack - 1/2 cup SFFF pistachio pudding, 1 tblsp. chocolate chips
Supper - 1 breaded chicken breast
Snack - 1 cookie, SFNF pumpkin latte

Too much food and I'm going to try and not eat anything tonight...but worse comes to worse I'll stay away from the cookies and have some SF pudding instead.

Day 211

Well it's day 211. Day 210 did not end too well. A lot of mindless eating late at night while doing homework. In my pre-op life, homework and exams were just an excuse to overeat. The frosh 15 actually made me happy because if I gained a bit of weight, I could just blame it on school. Of course my frosh 15 was more of a frosh 55. Last night I ate so much bread...I realized what I was doing but man, why?! It's frustrating this food addiction I have.

Breakfast - 3/4 detour bar
Snack - SFNF pumpkin latte
Lunch - Chicken breast with gravy and some french fries (I felt like shit after)
Supper - 1 beef eggroll, some more french fries
Snack - SFFF pistachio pudding with 1/2 scoop vanilla protein powder

I'm pms'ing and craving starches like there's no tomorrow. I need to cut them out. Tomorrow's a new day!

Day 210

She's aliiiiiive! Yes, I am in fact alive. The semester is done this week so I've been really busy with last minute assignments and projects. These next 2 weeks will be even worse as I begin finals. I'm not too worried because I've done awesome this semester!
I decided that I need to start journalling again. I kind of gave up after a couple of weeks of writing everything down and seeing no results but back to basics for me! I did finally get a decent loss this week (week 30, -1.6) but I was finding myself reverting back to some old ways. Eating more bread, eating faster, eating sweets. In my mind I was eating in 'moderation' but eating wayyy too often throughout the day.
I splurged on True Religion jeans last week. Freaking size 32. And they've already stretched a bit too. I couldn't believe that I could actually tie them up and not have a bulging belly! I've lived in them since last Thursday. Best feeling in the world I tell ya.

Anyhoo...here's the scoop:

Breakfast - Detour bar
Snack - 1/2 doughnut, 1 SFNF pumpkin latte
Lunch - Stouffer's grilled herb chicken and veggies
Supper - Not sure yet
Snack - Not sure yet

My week 30 loss brings me to a total of 97.2 lbs down! So close to century club I can smell it!

Day 201

I suck at updating this month, wow! There really hasn't been a whole lot going on to be honest. Eating is going good. I eat everything in moderation. This afternoon we went to a cake restaurant. A FREAKING CAKE RESTAURANT. I was so hungry too, not the time of day to walk into a restaurant full of cakes. I managed though, and it wasn't the traumatic event it would have been if I hadn't had this surgery. Life is good right now, I have nothing to complain about!
I'm seeing a boy, although nothing is official yet. I definitely see more of a future with him than with the last guy I was seeing. It's crazy the attention I get differently now, I'm still enjoying it but can see it become annoying some day!
School semester ends in 2 weeks...then onto finals and then it's Christmas! I'm so relieved that the semester is over. It kind of sucks though because I am just so sick of studying that I've almost given up...I've really slacked off in the past couple of weeks.

That's really the update I have. Lame bit much?

:)

Day 196

I feel like I haven't updated in ages. There isn't too much going on, I'm seeing yet another boy, since the last one didn't work out. I'm 20 and I've never dated like I am now. It's very strange!
I have been really, really busy but eating is going well. As usual, the scale didn't budge until yesterday. Last week I weighed in at 180.3, on Thursday I was 182, and then Sunday I don't remember exactly what I was, but it was still above last Tuesday's official weigh-in. This morning I hopped on the scale and *poof* 177.4. What the crap?
It's a huge loss for me -2.9 and hopefully it's the beginning of some more nice big losses. Maybe I'll even reach my goal by Christmas!

That's it for today, the weather is gorgeous and I'm working in a couple of hours :(

Day 191

My life, in point form:

• Got size 10 jeans from Gap today. There's a long story to this, but I will have to wait until tomorrow to elaborate.
• Eating is going super but the scale isn't freaking budging, so no more scale hopping until Sunday the earliest.
• My doctor told me my dizzy/fainting spells are caused by dehydration so more water for me!

That's pretty much it. I have 2 assignments due tomorrow morning, but I work at 9 so I have no idea how to attempt this and manage to get some sleep.

Day 189

I've been a bad blogger! I'm doing great though, just busy with school and work. The semester ends in just a few weeks, crazy!

Today was my week 27 weigh-in and despite a gain on Sunday morning, I did manage to lose 1.2lb this week, bringing my total to 92.5lbs. Today and yesterday have been really good. I'm running out of AchievOne though...no idea what I'll do once those are gone, they've been my staple every morning!

Breakfast - AchievOne, cheese stick
Snack - NF SF hazelnut latte, detour bar
Lunch - 1/2 cup tomato veggie soup, 1/2 a bagel
Supper - Broccoli stuffed chicken
Snack - SF hot chocolate (I haven't had this yet, and don't think I will, I'm full)

839 calories, 25g of fat, 77g carbs, 74g protein including the hot chocolate which I won't be having.

Yay for me!

Day 186

Long time no update. I haven't had a good eating week at all. I've let my hormones get the best of me and haven't used the willpower I should have. I'm feeling pretty crappy and don't know how to snap out of it!

I found this picture on my computer tonight. It was taken in Cuba one of the first times I went in early 2006. It shocks me to see old pictures like this. I hardly recognize myself!

I'm eating (of course) it's just one of those pictures, I can't help but wonder, how did I ever think I could be happy weighing as much as I did?

It also makes me feel like I have such an amazing tool to use, and I'm taking it for granted.

I'm sleepy, weepy, and blah. Better update to come tomorrow.