Monday, March 10, 2008

Day 314

No updates in a couple of days, oops! I had a busy weekend and we got dumped on by snow big time Saturday. They still haven't cleared the snow and they say it won't be done until the end of the week!
Eating-wise I didn't do too well this weekend. I was crabby, tired and just reaching for convenient food rather than cooking my own healthy stuff. Today is going well although the world seems to be handing me carbs. I had 1/2 a bagel for breakfast and tonight's dinner at the club was penne with meat sauce. I don't know whether my coffee shop screwed up my latte or what this morning but I'm thinking maybe she put in regular syrup instead of SF. I felt awful after it and still feel a bit queasy now. What sucks is that I left my gym bag at the gym because I didn't feel like lugging it around all day...so now I have to go all the way back there after work and pick it up before heading home.

Breakfast - 1/2 cinnamon/raisin bagel with a tiny bit of butter, 2 protein balls (right before gym)
Snack - Latte
Lunch - SB protein bar
Supper - 1 cup penne with meat sauce
Snack - Maybe protein pretzels, maybe SF pudding?

Aaaaand burnt 600 calories at the gym this morning, and got 2L of water in, yay!

Thursday, March 6, 2008

Day 310 pt. 2

I haven't had a 2-parter day in a while! I just got back from the gym and it was amazing. I was going to do a 20-20-20 class but I got there early and decided to restart my C25K program. It went great and I spent an extra 15 minutes on the treadmill walking. I also did about 10 minutes of elliptical and I thought my legs are going to fall off afterwards they were shaking so much. Tomorrow morning I'm going a bootcamp class. Should be a blast!

Eating today is going super. I edited my journal down below in part 1!

Day 310

After a nice long chat with one of my best WLS buds last night, I've decided that I need to become obsessed with calories tracking once again. Last fall it came to the point where I just refused to eat something I didn't have complete nutritional info on. It was making me crazy and I decided to stop my food journal because I wasn't eating enough and I didn't feel that I needed to worry about a few extra calories here and there. That was then! I need to seriously crackdown on this night time behaviour if it kills me.
I've mentioned it on here several times over the past couple of months and lately I've talked about it openly to my friends and family. I do fine all day long. I have no (almost) problem pushing food away, making healthy balanced meals, keep snacks reasonable and small...but once 9-10-11pm comes around, all that work goes to waste. It's like a completely lose control and just binge on anything I can pick up. It's completely self-destructive, almost completely unconscious and most of all, totally sick. Worst part is, I've probably followed this pattern of behaviour my entire life and never noticed it until now. It scares the crap out of me that I can't seem to stop this from happening night after night. And no, sipping on water won't do anything, neither will sucking on a SF popsicle. The past 2 nights I've had fruit late at night and my scale magically dropped almost 3 lbs. Good sign!

So here it is, my food intake of the day:

Breakfast - 1/2 cup berries, 1 package McCann's SF maple cinnamon oatmeal
Lunch - Detour protein bar
Supper - 1 cup left-over stir-fry from last night. My mom mixed the noodles with the veggies and chicken and I picked as much out of it as I could.
Snack - Cantaloupe, and/or latte, maybe a yogurt if I really need to eat something. I got back from the gym pretty late, so no eating after 9pm.

I'm going to the gym now - yay!!!! I'm so excited. I've been counting down the days since November!

Weight this morning: 177.8 [lowest weight recorded was 169.2 on Dec. 31st]

Wednesday, March 5, 2008

Day 309

I declared today a snow day for myself! The weather has been so awful this winter, I just don't understand where all this snow is coming from! I'm gonna try and take pics soon because the snow on our front lawn goes right up to the leafy part of our big tree! I kept waking up because of the wind and freezing rain so I was in no mood to haul my butt downtown this morning. That's a good excuse, right? I thought so too!
I decided to skip my regular morning protein shake to see if maybe my protein powder is causing the deadly gas I've experienced on and off for like 2 months now. I figured that I may be lactose intolerant and have switched to lactose-free skim milk since. It certainly helped my problem...but it hasn't gone away yet. I thought I was going to die the last night I had a shake with regular skim milk so maybe I'll ask for tests when I see my doctor next. So...no protein shake for the next couple of morning. As yummy as they are, they're actually really calorie packed (260 calories, 2g of fat, 26 carbs, 35g of protein) so cutting them out may even be a good thing.

Breakfast - 3/4 cup Special K 'Satisfaction', 1/2 cup LF skim milk
Lunch - Tomato, feta, onion, green pepper salad with balsamic & olive oil. Along with 1 egg, 1/2tsp spinach pesto, couple of tablespoons of parmesan cheese. Big lunch, yes!
Snack - Probably cantaloupe and berries
Supper - Apparently stir-fry!
Snack - I'll just focus on not eating after 8pm.

I'm gonna bravely plug this stuff into fitday and see what comes out...

Monday, March 3, 2008

Day 307

I'm at work, there's no kids, and mid-terms are finally done and over with so I figured I'd give a boring update!

This morning I had my appointment with the nutritionist at the hospital. I made this appointment back in early January and have been counting down the days because I was looking really forward to learning more about food...I even took the time to print out my fitday logs. I got to the hospital (anyone in Montreal knows that getting and parking at the Royal Vic is a pain in the butt) and waited for the nutritionist. I waited about 20 minutes and decided to go up to Dr. Christou's office and ask to have her paged. She didn't answer her page and we then called her desk...no answer. So I guess she forgot. I had a mid-term at 1, so I had to leave, pay my $10 parking and hope that she calls to re-schedule. Soon.
Oh and I spoke to the nurse coordinator about getting psychological help and he said "Call me tomorrow, today isn't a good day". Alrighty, then.
I was kind of irritated, definitely disappointed in the after-care I've received. I mean I understand how busy it is...but still.

I also brought my dad's application in this morning. I'm so worried for my dad though. I don't feel like he's exhausted all of his options and I really do worry that he thinks this surgery will cure all. I've made this whole process look pretty darn easy and I think I've almost tried convincing him not to go for it right away because he doesn't seem to get it. Will it be the best for him? Definietely, maybe. He's 52, hypertensive, diabetic, has bad sleep apnea...I just don't think he knows how much work is actually involved.

I've had a rough few days eating-wise. Today is going good so far but everyday is great until 10pm or so when I willingly mess it up by binging. I went to the gym on Friday and played squash and my own gym membership (complementary of the gym I work at) begins this Thursday, finally! Maybe it'll re-motivate me and certainly keep me busier than I already am. Spare time, what? What's that?