Sort of -32, but only because it's almost 1am!
I figured I should post that I discovered a pretty good protein shake today that someone on OH recommended. I was happy because I usually never find these in Canadian stores, but this one is actually made here! Gourmet Whey protein...I went and picked up a few samples for two or so dollars each, I got this Dreamy Chocolate Swirl and a Cappuccino one too, then I got a different brand mocha flavoured one for free. I must say...I only had the chocolate swirl one today, but with a couple of ice cubes, I could definitely handle it.
So that happened today, and that'll all on the WLS front, TGIF! :)
Oh and I found this really neat restaurant to celebrate my 20th/last night before my Optifast diet begins. La Menarva.
Friday, March 30, 2007
Monday, March 26, 2007
Saturday, March 24, 2007
The world isn't made for fat people
You'd think being teased about my weight my whole life has made me stronger, but nope. I still sometimes need a moment to cry because of how people treat us like shit, like we're worthless. I know I'm big, I know I sometimes make the wring food choices, but why do I need to be reminded of that constantly?
It's actually been a while since somebody has been rude to me in 'that' way but today, while I was in our staff room, somebody said my name, and I was talking to a friend and someone said "who's that? oh, the fat girl?" and then started laughing because he realised I was in the room. I've never had problems with the person who said it to me, but it just sucks that that's how people remember me. The fat girl. Like, when I'm gone, that's what will have defined me as a person?
Society sucks sometimes.
//end.of.rant.
It's actually been a while since somebody has been rude to me in 'that' way but today, while I was in our staff room, somebody said my name, and I was talking to a friend and someone said "who's that? oh, the fat girl?" and then started laughing because he realised I was in the room. I've never had problems with the person who said it to me, but it just sucks that that's how people remember me. The fat girl. Like, when I'm gone, that's what will have defined me as a person?
Society sucks sometimes.
//end.of.rant.
Friday, March 23, 2007
Glad it's not April 17th
So I decided to crack open a box of optifast and give the optifast chocolate shakes a try. I started with about half the package with 240ml of water and I found it way too watery. But tastewise, could be way worse. So I added the rest of the package and added about 80ml of water...and now it's just too thick and blah. Weird after taste. Kinda tastes like spiked cake batter. I've had about half and already be full, so at least I know I won't go starving. I may have to buy some popsickle trays and try that.
Ick.
Pre-op Shananigans
Ladies and gents, I am exhausted! What a LONG day it was, but I survived.
First appointments of the day were at the hospital. I had to fast from 12am the night before. I was to be at the hospital for 8:30am and start with blood work, x-rays, and EKG. With traffic, I only got there at around 9. I went up to Dr. Christou's office and was given 3 papers (1 for each test) and a bunch of overwhelming directions to my stops within the hospital. So I went and did that was was shocked to be done all 3 within an hour! It went better than I expected, the worst part was probably laying on a bed topless with my boobs hanging out and a weird doctor sticking probes everywhere for the EKG, but it was fine. I was out of there by 10:15am and headed to the clinic for the rest of my day.
I got to PsycheSoma at 10:30, an entire hour before my appointment. The wait wasn't long at all and it was great to meet Ellen again. They called me in to do my body composition and BP. Then it was time for my psych evaluation. It was kind of awkward at times, because the doctor would just stare at me and nod and there would be a silence in the room while he just looked at me. It went well and he seemed to like my plan of action for handling emotional eating and stuff. He also loved my idea of taking a picture a day post-op. After that I did the metabolic rate breathing machine test thingy-ma-jig and that was even more awkward because all I had to do was breathe and have the doctor stare at me breathing for 10 minutes. That too went fine, as silly as I felt.
After this I met with the physical therapist who made me do push-ups, run on the treadmill, do squats..all for the first time in a while, so needless to say I was winded pretty quickly and definitely not a wise thing to do on an empty stomach for 12+ hours.
After the physical assessment, I went downstairs and grabbed something to eat..then back up to meet with the nutritionist. Her I couldn't handle. She seemed very judgemental and it made me pretty uncomfortable to tell her what I was eating because she kept making faces. I put up with it and in the end she gave me some pretty solid advice...but by this 3rd appointment I was pretty discouraged and ready to head home.
At 4pm, I met with the medical doctor and she was an absolute sweetheart! She looked over my results of the entire day and told me that I had made a very wise choice...and that my youth would definitely help me and that if I kept my attitude, the surgery would work marvelously. She even said my skin should have no problems setting back into place. I could have done cartwheels when she said that. She also recommended I swim in the summer which I definitely will be doing!
So that was it, I left with my 4 boxes of Optifast ready to go. 39 days people!
PS My body composition and measurements were:
Weight today: 269 lbs.
Height: 5'4"
BMI: 46.2
BMR: 2038 cal/2290 cal actual
Body Fat: 52.3 %
Fat Mass: 140.51 lbs.
Bicep: 45cm
Waist (navel): 134cm
Hips (butt): 129cm
Chest (boobs): 141cm
Right thigh: 76cm
I can't wait to check those again in 6mos!
First appointments of the day were at the hospital. I had to fast from 12am the night before. I was to be at the hospital for 8:30am and start with blood work, x-rays, and EKG. With traffic, I only got there at around 9. I went up to Dr. Christou's office and was given 3 papers (1 for each test) and a bunch of overwhelming directions to my stops within the hospital. So I went and did that was was shocked to be done all 3 within an hour! It went better than I expected, the worst part was probably laying on a bed topless with my boobs hanging out and a weird doctor sticking probes everywhere for the EKG, but it was fine. I was out of there by 10:15am and headed to the clinic for the rest of my day.
I got to PsycheSoma at 10:30, an entire hour before my appointment. The wait wasn't long at all and it was great to meet Ellen again. They called me in to do my body composition and BP. Then it was time for my psych evaluation. It was kind of awkward at times, because the doctor would just stare at me and nod and there would be a silence in the room while he just looked at me. It went well and he seemed to like my plan of action for handling emotional eating and stuff. He also loved my idea of taking a picture a day post-op. After that I did the metabolic rate breathing machine test thingy-ma-jig and that was even more awkward because all I had to do was breathe and have the doctor stare at me breathing for 10 minutes. That too went fine, as silly as I felt.
After this I met with the physical therapist who made me do push-ups, run on the treadmill, do squats..all for the first time in a while, so needless to say I was winded pretty quickly and definitely not a wise thing to do on an empty stomach for 12+ hours.
After the physical assessment, I went downstairs and grabbed something to eat..then back up to meet with the nutritionist. Her I couldn't handle. She seemed very judgemental and it made me pretty uncomfortable to tell her what I was eating because she kept making faces. I put up with it and in the end she gave me some pretty solid advice...but by this 3rd appointment I was pretty discouraged and ready to head home.
At 4pm, I met with the medical doctor and she was an absolute sweetheart! She looked over my results of the entire day and told me that I had made a very wise choice...and that my youth would definitely help me and that if I kept my attitude, the surgery would work marvelously. She even said my skin should have no problems setting back into place. I could have done cartwheels when she said that. She also recommended I swim in the summer which I definitely will be doing!
So that was it, I left with my 4 boxes of Optifast ready to go. 39 days people!
PS My body composition and measurements were:
Weight today: 269 lbs.
Height: 5'4"
BMI: 46.2
BMR: 2038 cal/2290 cal actual
Body Fat: 52.3 %
Fat Mass: 140.51 lbs.
Bicep: 45cm
Waist (navel): 134cm
Hips (butt): 129cm
Chest (boobs): 141cm
Right thigh: 76cm
I can't wait to check those again in 6mos!
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
*41*
It is getting CLOSE! There was a documentary on Dr Christou tonight and it was very interesting! One of the patients that was featured apparently attends my support group meeitings too which is neat. He's lost over 200lbs too. None of the interviewees had anything negative to say about the surgery which is nice, very refreshing. It made me so proud to be having surgery :)
I think I'm going to take a picture every day post-op. I've always wanted to do that, but it'll be even funner when I'm losing weight. So that'll be fun!
That is it for day -42 (actually -41 because it's past midnight)
I think I'm going to take a picture every day post-op. I've always wanted to do that, but it'll be even funner when I'm losing weight. So that'll be fun!
That is it for day -42 (actually -41 because it's past midnight)
Sunday, March 18, 2007
44 days and counting
INSANE how quicly March is going by. Seems like yesterday I started counting down from 100! Things are definitely coming into place. I had my before-last pre-op support group today and it was great as usual. One of the ladies who had been waiting 4 years for a date finally got one..and on April 4th. And this Thursday I have my long day at the hospital and PsychSoma clinic for pre-op testing! That should be interesting. I'll be getting my optifast shakes then too. Can't say I'm looking forward to the shakes though, I'm really dreading it actually. I'm very picky with ym textures.
I think I'm going to have to travel south of the border to pick up a few things I have read about on the OH boards. I definitely am going to need the DaVinci sugar free syrops, some Crystal Lite individals, and that sugar-free Nesquick to name a few.
I also want to look into getting the Magic Bullet because I figure it'll be easier than having to wash the giant blender after each shake. We'll see.
I definitely have my positive outlook today and am looking super forward to my life post-op!
I think I'm going to have to travel south of the border to pick up a few things I have read about on the OH boards. I definitely am going to need the DaVinci sugar free syrops, some Crystal Lite individals, and that sugar-free Nesquick to name a few.
I also want to look into getting the Magic Bullet because I figure it'll be easier than having to wash the giant blender after each shake. We'll see.
I definitely have my positive outlook today and am looking super forward to my life post-op!
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
Just a quick update
...and I couldn't resist posting a picture of my friend Jenn & I at Sophie Kinsella's book signing. I love her; she's my favourite author ever, and a joy to meet.
And now for the update part of this post, I got a call today from Ellen at the PsychSoma clinic which does the pre-op testing, and well the want me to go to the hospital first and get bloodwork done and then be at the clinic. So that's 12hrs + of fasting. Plus I get my optifast, so I can get to tasting it finally...I'm hoping I don't hate it lol
That's all for today...another late night of studying :)
Long time no post!
Well, I have been sick! I think it's mostly from sleep deprivation though. School has been rough on my zzzzz's lately. I have to pull 2 all nighters back-to-back last week, with 3 hours sleep in between. What a killer! I got 12hrs sleep the next night, but woke up feeling crappy. Sore throat, ears, runny nose, and a bad cough. Of course it didn't help to go out nights either.
I've had an okay week aside from that. I missed the french support group meeting, but the english one is this coming Sunday. And then, a week from Thursday is my pre-op testing day. NUT, Psych. assessment, a whole bunch of tests I don't even remember the names of too. Fun stuff!
It's getting close, less than 50 days left! I should take that counter off. It's making me nervous! lol
I've had an okay week aside from that. I missed the french support group meeting, but the english one is this coming Sunday. And then, a week from Thursday is my pre-op testing day. NUT, Psych. assessment, a whole bunch of tests I don't even remember the names of too. Fun stuff!
It's getting close, less than 50 days left! I should take that counter off. It's making me nervous! lol
Sunday, March 4, 2007
"Perfect Exceeder"
58 days to go! I got this book last week from amazon.ca and I must say, it's extremely informative. There are recipes, lots of honest advice, and I've even passed it along to my parents so they can get a better idea of what's ahead.
I had a good weekend...not bad following a 40cm snowstorm on Friday. It was hell to say the least; I thought it would never end. My car was completely snowed in...it it weren't for the warmer temps this weekend I'd still be stuck.
On Saturday I used up my Swarovski store credit to buy some really nice earrings. Then I went out with my girls for a wild night of fun. It's funny how we used to go out 3-4 times a week and now we're lucky if we can find 1 weekend a month to all get together lol. It was nice!
I have a pretty quiet week, the next 2-3 weeks are pretty jam packed with support group meetings and my pre-op testing. And a bunch of birthdays!
There's a french support meeting on Wednesday but I'm not 100% certain I'll be able to get there just yet. Parking at the hospital is quite the pain.
That's pretty much it for tonight....58!
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