Day 183: Happy Halloween!

Halloween. The one day of the year in which it's ok to eat mounds and mounds of chocolate. Or at least it was. I used to look so forward to having all this candy in the house. We'd always eat it all a week before Halloween and end up having to buy more. This year I think my mom did me a favour in not buying any until this afternoon. Would it have been a problem? Maybe, not like other years, but it was a relief to not have to worry about the temptation.

Here's what I've eaten today so far:

Breakfast - AchievOne, 2 melba toast with PB, 4 soy crisps

Snack - 7 jelly beans. Best darn jelly beans I've ever had!

Lunch - Nothing (breakfast was late so I didn't go hungry)

Supper - Whole wheat thin crust spinach and chicken pizza

Snack - I know I can't avoid the candy all night so I'm anticipating having a couple of treats.

Very reasonable if you ask me! I'm going to the gym in a couple of hours. I'm gonna play squash :)

Day 182

It's late, I'm sleepy so this is gonna be quick.

Breakfast - AchievOne
Snack - NF SF hazelnut latte
Lunch - Whole wheat toast with PB
Snack - Spy crisps
Supper - Broccoli & cheese stuffed chicken breast

Totals: 671 calories, 23g of fat, 62g carbs, 54g of protein.

So-so eating day today, haven't really been in the mood to eat. I finally got my AchievOne protein drinks (mocha java) and it tastes okay, I'll need to order the cappuccino next time. Stupid UPS broke 3 of my bottles.

Today was also week 26 weigh-in day and to my surprise...I lost 2 lbs! I was the same or more up until this weekend when I decided that I was getting too hard on myself. I'm hoping to see the 170's next weekend.

I booked my plane ticket to FL tonight...I leave Valentine's day for 9 days. That'll be a nice break.

Anyhoo, I'm off to bed!

Day 180

I have pictures! It's too bad I didn't have my camera at the restaurant or at the church, I would have gotten much better ones.




The supper was fun, nice italian restaurant. Everyone kept saying how different I looked since last time I saw most of these relatives was in August. The outfit came together pretty nicely. My shoes are too big at the back. I NEVER was able to wear these for as long as I did today in my "previous" life. Pretty random!
Supper was good, had veal parmesan with a side of spaghetti. I had maybe 3 or 4oz of the veal and a couple of bites of the spaghetti. It was so good, and I forgot the rest of it at the restaurant! Stupid me. I even had some desert. They came out with a chocolate cake, I had a couple of bites, put down my fork...pushed the plate away and before I knew it I had taken a couple more. I had the piece with the least amount of icing so I can see why I didn't dump. But man do I wish I had!

Anyhoo, I have some catching up to do. Where has the weekend gone?

Day 178

It is day 178 and I am exhausted! I started work officially a couple of days ago, I actually start up again in 7 1/2 hours.
Things have been good. I have been doing stupid things though, aka voluntarily sabotaging my eating. Like late yesterday I wanted some soy crisps. I usually count out 14-15 into a bowl and put the bag away. Last night I was lazy and sleepy and just wanted soy chips. I knew that I would eat more than I should and I knew I wouldn't be able to stop *all of this internal dialogue of course* but I still brought the bag with me and munched away. Same thing happened this morning with a waffle. I saw a nice plate of waffles my mom had made and knew that I shouldn't have it. All those carbs, and the thickness you'd think would give me foamies. But nope. I grabbed one. I ate about 3/4 of it. But WHY?

Aside from that I bought the nicest dress today! I'm going to a baptism on Sunday and realized that I have nothing to wear. This dress looks amazing on. My jaw dropped in the dressing room. It's a size 12, nice cashmere-type turtleneck. I can't wait to wear it!

That's pretty much it for Friday's news :)

Day 176

Not too much to say tonight. Things are well!

Breakfast - SF instant breakfast
Snack - 14 soy crisps
Lunch - 3/4 cup oh leftover shepard's pie, 1 tblsp HP sauce
Supper - Caprese salad, 3oz grilled breaded pork, 1 tblsp marinara, 3 mini bocconcini balls
Snack - Maybe a SF NF latte later tonight, or a protein ball, or some more soy crisps, unlikely though.

Water - Way better than yesterday, but I doubt I'll get more than 1.5L in
Exercise - Sadly. No.

Tra la la la!

Day 175

Week 25 in Loservilled Stats:


Not too shabby, I am back on track as of Sunday...I need to get to these 170's. I haven't weighed 170 since the 6th grade!!!

Breakfast - Protein balls (I think I'm sick of them, they're getting hard to finish)
Snack - SF NF vanilla latte
Lunch - 1/2 chicken & pesto panini, on whole wheat bread
Snack - Soy crisps, probably anywhere between 25-30, I lost count
Supper - About 3/4 cup of shepard's pie. My mom decided not to drain the fat, so it was gross.

Back to studying for tomorrow's mid-term!

Day 174

I am soooo glad today is over and done with! This afternoon I had my stats mid-term. This is the one I've been dreading the entire time and I am glad to report that I aced it! I can't wait to get this grade back. Two down, two to go. The last 2 should be a breeze though.
I did eat better today. I was a lot calmer which made a huge difference I think. I made some protein balls last night to get me through this week. I also went a did a bit of grocery shopping this afternoon. I loaded up on soy crisps and stuff to make salads. I need to get back on track. It's not that I've been eating badly per se, I just haven't been eating. Starbucks SF NF latte does not a meal make!

Breakfast - 1/2 a protein ball
Lunch - 1/2 whole wheat chicken pesto panini
Snack - 3 soy crisps
Supper - Broccoli & cheese stuffed chicken breast, 1/4 cup mashed potatoes
Snack - Either a protein ball or some soy crisps

These new protein balls I made with low-fat peanut butter, so 5g of fat, instead of 9g.

Day 171

Oh do I have stories to share! It's really late though, and I have work early in the morning but I'll post this anyways.
A couple of friends and I had a girls night out tonight. We decided on dinner and a movie. Fun, right? So we get to the restaurant (after getting SOAKED just walking from the car) and instead of ordering big meals, we would just order 3 appetizers and split them (they had a special, 3 appetizers for $21). While we were waiting for that to come, we bumped into a friend who happened to be a waitress. She was very sweet and got us some drinks (diet coke for me, I took maximum 3 tiny sips) and some cream of broccoli soup. I figure it was soup, so it wouldn't fill me up too much, and I hadn't really eaten anything hearty all week so a little soup couldn't hurt! WRONG. I had about a 1/4 cup and started feeling really tired all of the sudden. Almost like I had to put my head down. It didn't help of course that the restaurant was loud and crowded. plus it was hot because of the humidity outside. I told my friends that I wasn't feeling so good, but after 10-15 minutes I really had to get away to calm myself down. My heart wasn't pounding like it did the couple of other times...I just felt so tired, weak, almost faint. I went to the bathroom and just sat down on the bench and did some breathing, splashed some water on my face. It took a good 10 minutes before I could go back to the table. I still felt a little off, but within 20 minutes of that, I was a different person. I felt so much better. It was strange, but that's dumping. No more soup for me!

Aside from that I start work tomorrow, then I babysit. And Sunday is another library day. I spent 3 hours there today but didn't get that much done. Next mid-term is Monday, and then Wednesday, and then Thursday. I need sleep now...

Day 169

Same story, different day. Another crazy day of cramming at the library. Today, by 8:30pm all I had eaten was 1/2 an apple and a granola bar! I was dying for a coffee but I was all out of change. Tomorrow should be better, my mid-term ends at 11:30 and then I have a break to study and maybe even have a decent meal!
I knew when I signed up for this surgery that school would be my biggest obstacle, and alas it is. It doesn't help that I have don't really have anything compact that I can take with me in the morning. And I'm broke and I hate buying fast food, plus I can't eat in the library.

Heeeelp!

Day 168

Now week 24 in Loserland and this will be yet another quick entry. *Pleasemidtermsbeoversoon* I am losing my mind. My eating is all over the place. I eat when I have the chance to, which is like in the car on the way to or from school. 9 days to go.

On a good note - I lost 4.1 lbs this week! YAYAYAYAYAY!!!!!!!!!!! After losing 0.8 lb last week, I was freakin' determined to do good this week. It really paid off. Now 10lbs away from being 'overweight' and 14.7 lbs away from my personal goal of 170. I'm sure I will continue losing, at least until my BMI is in the healthy range, but if I can maintain up to 170, I'll be the happiest person for the rest of my life.

Must get back to working...I'm falling asleep. Wait, sleep? What's that?

Day 167

Another quickie here tonight. Must. Get. Back. To. Writing. Paper.

(bad eating day)
B - 1/2 protein ball, yogurt
Sn - NF cafe latte
L - Nothing really
Su - 1 meat egg roll, 1 bite of a chicken tender, 6 french fries, 3 fork fulls of slaw salad.

Horrible! I may eat again before I sleep but I don't know what I feel like. I also didn't run tonight because there are simply not enough hours in a day for school and fitness it seems.

Tomorrow is another [weigh-in] day!

Day 166

I don't have much to say today, it's been a pretty boring one. I haven't had much of an appetite at all and I haven't been drinking my water. Blah!

I don't even think I can separate today's food total into meals: protein ball this morning, then a SF mocha thing with hazelnut, then a bit of lasagna and chicken alfredo (1 cup TOPS of both together). That's pretty much it, I feel really hungry now so I may go and grab something in a bit. I've just been pre-occupied all day, no time/desire to eat.

That's it for today!

Day 165: Procrastination

I'm at the library and this has been the most unproductive library trip ever. I've had to make a to-do list just to get me through these next 2 weeks of school. Stupid mid-term time.

I had quite the wow-moment this morning. I had an appointment with the nurse for my B12 injection and as the nurse was looking over my chart, her jaw dropped. She turned to me and said "You had gastric bypass surgery!?" And I nodded, she asked me how much I had lost and I told her 85 lbs. I thought she was going to fall off her chair, she then said "You were 85 lbs heavier? I never would have guessed it. You look so normal!". NORMAL? ME? It's funny because my best friend was telling me last night that she doesn't even think of me as overweight anymore. Of course I didn't believe her, but 2 people in 12 hours have called me "normal" looking. I've always been fat, how can that be?

Also, I spoke to my dad last night about me needing cold weather clothes because I've got nothing and he said to get what I needed and he'd chip in if I needed it. I'm going to need some sort of a fall jacket and a winter coat which is stressing me out because I'm in between sizes right now. Not quite a 12, but a 14 is just too big.

Food for the day - I haven't eaten yet today, so that will TBD.

Day 164

I do not even know how/why I am still awake. I ended up pulling an all-nighter last night, and after speeding downtown to school to hand in my assignment, I just sleep on and off all day long. How's that for productive? I was also having a hungry day. Probably caused by boredom. And when I feel like this, I seem to shut down, lock myself in my room and avoid the kitchen at all costs. I hate grazing and that's a big thing for me. I did pretty well though:

Breakfast - Protein ball
Lunch - Stouffer's rigatoni, 1oz cheese
Snack - Protein ball
Supper - 2 meat egg rolls
Snack - SF, NF vanilla latte

Totals - 950 calories, 38g of fat, 103 carbs, & 50g of protein. Meh.

Tomorrow I'm waking up, getting my B12 shot, heading to the library (shoot me plz!) and then going on my last run for week #1 of this C25K program. Good night!

Day 163!

Finally a picture of my masterpiece! They look like meatballs and taste like the best cookie dough ever. I need to cut back on them a touch, I've had 3 today, and sure they aren't all that unhealthy, but they represent almost half of all that I've consumed today.

I just finished another fantastic run. It was harder tonight but so rewarding. I went on afterwards for a bit even. I'm near dead now, but man am I proud :)

That's all I have to post today, I've been avoiding my assignment like the plague and reeeeeally need to get a move on it.

I have been logging all my food on fitday, I just haven't posted it here in a while:

Breakfast - Protein ball

Snack - Starbucks SF, NF hazelnut latte

Lunch - Cordon bleu chicken

Snack - Protein ball

Supper - Corn on the cob, and you guessed it...another protein ball (after my work-out)

Water - Excellent

Exercise - Fantabulous

Totals for the day - 942 calories, 44g of fat (yikes, I blame the PB), 78 carbs, and 63g of protein.

Day 162!

First things first, I completed my first C25K run last night!!!!!!! It was really hard, especially that last 60 second run. I can't wait until tomorrow. I woke up this morning and had a bit of pain in my groin area, hopefully it won't be so bad tomorrow. It isn't even funny how I would have collapsed 6 months ago doing what I did last night.

Eating is going well again today. I figured out that my protein balls have 163 calories, 9g of fat, 11g carbs, 11g of protein. Kind of more fat/calories than I expected. I've had 3 today, they're so good! I also had some thin crust/whole wheat pizza for supper, and then for snacks I had the rest of my soy crisps. I'm definitely going to need to buy some more of those too, they were so yummy.

That's all for tonight :)

Day 161

Week 23 here in Loserland...and I only lost 0.8 lbs this week :( I was at 187 (as opposed to 188.8 this morning) earlier this week, and here I was thinking I had had a really good past few days. Hopefully I can keep it up and boost these loses. 0.8lbs kinda sucks if I want to make it to my goal by the end of the year.

Breakfast - Protein ball, I must admit, it was too sweet to eat in one shot
Snack - Starbucks SF, NF, hazelnut latte
Lunch - 1/4 cup lentil soup, greek salad, 3oz feta cheese, 2 french fries
Supper - Cordon bleu chicken, 1/2 corn on the cob.
Snack - I think I'll have some soy crisps later tonight, maybe a protein ball

That's all for today!

Day 161

I had a fantastic food day. I need to review a product today because I am soooo in love with these it is not even funny. Genisoy soy crisps. I picked them up last night and gave them a try today. They are full of protein (well, 11g per 28 chips, so I can have 14 twice a day, good deal if you ask me), low in fat, carbs, and high in fiber. They smell really weird though so I was hesitant to try them, but wow! I can't wait to try the other flavours.

Aside from these, I made some french toast for breakfast. I had a slice and it was so good, I topped mine with some splenda, extra cinnamon, and of course SF syrup. I then spent hours in the kitchen making tomato sauce and then braising my lovely pork chops inside. This was so good, I wish I had taken a picture. And then tonight I decided I was craving something sweet, so I searched the web for some protein ball recipes. I hate protein powder and kind of dislike peanut butter, but I will try anything loaded with 10g of protein per tiny serving these days. I came across this site and found a protein ball recipe I could try out. I ended up combining elements from a bunch of recipes and got my lovely balls of protein. They are very sweet, but I think I can handle it. I just put them in he fridge and these and definitely things I can use if I need a protein boost/sweet snack. ***I do have a picture of my final product but blogger is being weird***

That's all for tonight...tomorrow is weigh-in Tuesday!

Day 159

Oh so sleey. I had another full day of training and rushing home to chauffeur my brothers between friend's houses and hockey practice. I can't wait to not do anything tomorrow, Thanksgiving Monday.

I had a really good eating today. I nearly got sick at supper though, my grandmother had us over and I ate really well, much more than I thought I would. What nearly killed me was the cookied I decided to have once I was DONE eating.

Here's what I ate:

Breakfast - Tea. I brought a protein bar to eat in the car but it was gross.
Lunch - A little less than 1/2 a small chicken teryaki sandwich at Subway, whole wheat bread, cheddar cheese, veggies. I had the chicken and cheese in the other half once I got home from work (no bread).
Snack - 14 soy crisps chips (found these tonight, they're excellent! 11g of protein per 28 crackers).
Supper - Lean pork tenderloin (4oz, who knew! It was so moist, very lean), couple of carrot pieces and broccoli florets, and some salad with SF dressing. I felt full and instead of going for the individual chocolate mudslide cakes my grandmother made, hot out of the oven may I add, I had just a chocolate cookie...the one that my pouch just was too full for.

Goodnight!

Day 158

First things first, my date last night. Now we had gone out a couple of times, just for coffee and to talk...all the getting to know each other stuff. We had also been talking on the phone A LOT over the past few days. He's very nice and most of the time we had great conversation, but I don't think I'm what he's looking for right now. I definitely am not ready (especially now that I have such a new perspective on life since my surgery) to settle down at all. I'm not sure if I had mentioned that we had quite a few years age difference, hence the much more serious talks last night. I'm really not sure what's next. I suck at this type of stuff!

Besides that I had to be up by 7 to drive my parents to the airport, and then went to my new job training. Round 2 of this training is tomorrow all day. Ouf! And then I take my brothers to my grandmothers for yet another Thanksgiving dinner.

Food-wise I'm doing okay today, I need to go grocery shopping at some point before Tuesday and I have sooo much homework to do.

More tomorrow!

Day 156

Another quick update this evening. I hate homework! I've had a really, really happy past couple of days. I met a boy, his name is Claudio and I really, really like him! We've had a couple of unofficial "getting to know each other" dates, but tomorrow night is the big official fancy schmany dinner date. This is a huge thing for me because other than the one boyfriend I've had, I've never really dated like other girls my age. We're taking it slow and I'll see where this takes me!
In other news, I went gym hunting today, sort of. I knew of a gym near my school which I had been avoiding because I didn't think it was worth seeing. It seemed small and I knew it had been around for a long time which mean old equipment etc. Well I went to see it today and was completely blown again! It takes up the entire floor upstairs and every cardio machine has its own satelite tv, the classes seem very interesting, and it was huge! I got a good vibe and it's definitely a contender. Plus, with my student discount, it's almost half price from the regular membership. Also, I can go to the location near my house since I'm not downtown at school every day.

I should really get going, here's what I ate:

B - Nothing
Snack - Medium SF vanilla NF latte
L - 3oz chicken, a few french fries, a few sips diet coke
S - Probably leftover chicken, cheese
Snack - I may have a latte tonight

Goodnight!

Day 155

Hockey's back! Yay! Here is my WL chart with this morning's updated weight. Goodbye 190's, hello 180's. I am so close to my goal it's crazy, I could not be any happier!

Big loss this week, but that's only because I was sick and doing nothing but keeping somewhat hydrated. Eating today has been tough for some reason. I just haven't had the time or the apetite for food.

B - 1/3 south beach diet protein bar
L - 1/2 small slice of chicken pizza on whole wheat crust
Snack - Kit-Kat single bar
S - Not sure yet, I'm really not that hungry.

Water - Good, good!

Anyhoo, back to the game!

Thought I'd share these...

April 2007
The night before my surgery I realized that I hadn't taken formal full-body pictures...so I took these in the bathroom mirror.


And then tonight, 5mos and 1 day later in the same outfit.


Those jeans were my favourite...they are size 22, and the shirt is men's size XL.

PS. Ignore the mess in the background :)

Day 154

Week 22 begins! I was up almost all night last night and woke up late, so no morning run AND I forgot to weigh-in. What are the chances of that? I will weigh-in tomorrow and hopefully get that running thing started tonight. If I don't fall asleep in my books that is.

I gotta head to the library now...oh the joys of being a student!

B - Piece of cheese
L - Fruit salad (no juice/sugar) and part of a spicy chicken wrap (maybe 1/5 of a full wrap). It was wayyy too spicy for my liking.
Snack - Maybe more of the wrap, or a SF rice pudding
S - No idea yet, maybe the wrap.

Boring day today, eating wise. I just have no time for food it seems!

Day 153

Happy 5 month sergiversary to me! Can't believe it's been 5 months. This is going to be fast because I have yet another essay to write and lots of studying to do before I let myself go to bed. Plus I just had a protein bar and I feel crappy now.

Food today:
B - Nothing
L - 1/2 white bun with LF garlic and chives cream cheese
Snack - 1 piece of cheese
S - 1 slice (actually, 3/4) of whole wheat bread, 1 egg, 1 tblsp mayonnaire
Snack - South beach peanut butter protein bar (yuck!)

Water - Meh, could be wayyy better.
Exercise - I'm going to try and wake up 45mins earlier tomorrow morning and run. Big words...but I'm going to try!